Growing up I only saw my dad cry a couple of times but witnessed my mother cry often. I remember thinking that people who cried so easily were weak so I fought the tears back every time I felt them coming on. I didn't want to be weak. As I grew older my views changed and I realized that no matter how hard I fought them back, it was inevitable and I stopped fighting so hard.
Sometimes I hate that I'm such an emotional person but I haven't viewed it as being weak or vulnerable in a very long time. Instead I feel like it shows my strength and courage. Crying is a release. It relives my stress levels and in the end relaxes me. That doesn't mean that I'm going to cry all the time. I still fight the tears back from time to time especially when I'm angry. I guess I've just come to terms with being a cry baby and totally accept it. I have 5 kids... that comes with 5 times more hormones than before, what other excuse do I need?
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