I've often thought about what I will do with myself when all of the kids start school. I figure I'll end up working part-time at a daycare or some place similar so that I can be here when the kids are out of school and during the summer. I still have three years to figure it all out but with so many changes coming this year I'm starting to question what I really want to do with my life.
Come August Chase and most of the kids I currently watch during the day will start preschool or kindergarten. I will be left with just Joelie here at home with me and maybe one or two other (part-time) toddlers. It will be the first time in 7 years that I won't have a house full of kids and I'm not sure what I want to do. I've thought about placing a new ad and seeing if I could fill the spots with a couple of full time kids but the truth is... I'm ready to move on.
I've struggled with feeling successful over the years. Sure I run my own company and it's rewarding watching kids learn and grow but there has always been something missing. There are no promotions or bonuses. There isn't anyone providing feedback on a regular basis telling me job well done and come income tax time... well... it all seems like a big joke. Plus throw in the emotional attachment to kids that leave and not being able to do things with my own kids and it's just heartbreaking.
So... now what? It's time to start making decisions and doing something that I really want to do. I'm ready to build a career and make something of myself that I can be proud of. The question is... do I have the courage to make it happen?
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